Mix emotions

Ten mineuts ago I found out that Mark Salling who became famous for playing Noah 'puck' puckerman has died, what they say as suspected suicide.

Now when Glee started I was 12 and in high school the perfect audience for Glee. I watched all 7 sessions of it, and I loved Puck. So I was surprised and sadden to here that a healthy 35 year old man died.

However at the same time I knew he pleeded guilty to holding more then 50,000 child pornography. So at the same time I am not sad.

So I have this conflicted emotions running through my mind of sound I be upset and be allowed to grief or should I just get on with my day. Like he did something really horrible, bit at the same time he confessed and was ready to face his sentence.

Like January isn't hard enough for me. Like I am not suffering for suicidal thoughts, like just as I thoughts things was looking up. This happened.

Sorry I have to go make myself a nice hot chocolate and cry myself to bed.

Goodnight everybody

Love you

Zanny xx