Another poem

I know I have son a lot of poems of late but I can't really talk about what I'm going through with words. It just to emotional. I did promise to keep going. So here the poem.

An unopened Flower
A cocoon butterfly
Scared...
Waiting
Not knowing when it their turn
To walk in the sun
For their time to Shine.
"I can do this"
Then again
What if I can't.
I'm just a dead
I'm just a caterpillar.
Nothing worthy of your love.
A ugly
No good.
Someone who trapped
Locked in a cage
Who can't escape the fear.
The war inside them.









That all I can managed today without my ears watering with tears. Thank for reading it.

Goodnight everybody

Love you

Zanny xx

Look at me
Mock me
That where you are here
And thrown away the key!
Locking me up inside this cage.
Saying to protect me.
Who are you protecting me from?
Other people?
Or are you protecting them?
From having to look at me.
Please you have to understand,
I just a scared bird.
I just need somebody to unlock the cage,
Hold my hand and teach me how to
Fly



Goodnight everybody

Love you

Zanny xx

Time for poem

Smile you say
They say you are strong
However there a fire
One that is hot to touch.
But it draws you near.
Until you are sucked in,
Can't escape the burns,
The hate,
The words
Ugly
Stupid
Week
Worthless
Not needed.
You know they right,
You try and hide it,
But you keep going back,
To the flames,
And there is no escape.

There are times where there is a fire in my brain in which I try and blank out and the fire does draw me in to where I believe that I am ugly, stupid, week, worthless and not needed. Due to these thought I have self harmed, nearly today. It always the same method burning my wrist on the stove.

It not something I want to do once I do it, but when I do it not me doing it.  I do try and stop myself from doing it but sometimes I in so much pain that I can't think other wise.

Poem

Lost
Home
Family
Home is where my family at.
Yet there a part of me saying,
"You not welcome here.*
Running around.
Trying to find someone to say.
Those three words.
Those magical words to say you are safe. The
" You are home." And "we love you."
Where I can sit down without worry.
About what tomorrow might bring.
Where we can watch our favorite shows,
Eat our favorite meals together.
Maybe one day I can have that,
Only now I can dream my home.

Goodnight everybody

Love you

Zanny xx