Today I went to see my somebody o basically try and get me out the house more often. One of the things because of where I live and some nights I have to walk back quiet late. Even though it like 7pm but round my area that time onwards for a female isn't safe. So she for me a Panic alarm.
However she asked the police if there any chance I could be given one, because of where I am living I am high risk. However their response was we only give them to victims of crime which is stupid in my opinion. Half of the victims wouldn't be victims if they had a panic alarm on them.
Anyway I asked for a Blue one. Even though I was told that they mainly in pink... I was like that sooo sexist. So I decided to be annoying and asked for a blue one. Anyway I like blue, like come on my favorite colour is Turquoise. I said of not blue then black, I'm so not having pink.
For the rest of the day it was avoiding snacking and eating much. Ad I don't have much in my kitchen, basically it a dessert with like a cactus or two. But at the moment I just hope the money go through tomorrow, because you never know when and if the money going in with this government.
Like there people out there who basically abuse the benefit system, and they don't do anything about it. But then they have to cut on how much people can get for benefits. Then that means the people who really need the money struggle with paying rent and get food in that will least them long enough till next pay day.
Anyway rent over.
Goodnight everybody
Love you
Zanny
Showing posts with label hard times. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hard times. Show all posts
Monday, 15 January 2018
Thursday, 11 January 2018
Hard times
Stay strong, they say. However getting closer and closer to the 24th I can feel the pain of grief and the anger of guilt inside I shouldn't posses, grows.
It not easy going around town, seeing my friends and have a smile on my face, when right now it feels like a knife cutting inside my skin. Keeping on reminding me that my friends and flatmate death coming up.
It just shouldn't of been possible that a 21 year old perfectly healthy to just die. The worst thing for me, that all that we know. Nobody kept us informed.
I was so confused on that day, as I was the only person in the flat, feet away. Our rooms was right next to each other. Then I had to sit in the reception area for about 3 hours sitting quietly. Now and then getting questioned still unknown what happened.. My other flatmate was at university. When they moved me to a new flat about 4pm they told me on my own. I had nobody. All I remembered that they day about 10am.
On the 24th going to be so hard, to be honest... I don't know if or how I will cope. I hope I will cope because I know that she will. She was such a confident, funny, smart girl.
Anyway I better say goodnight
Love you
Zanny xx
It not easy going around town, seeing my friends and have a smile on my face, when right now it feels like a knife cutting inside my skin. Keeping on reminding me that my friends and flatmate death coming up.
It just shouldn't of been possible that a 21 year old perfectly healthy to just die. The worst thing for me, that all that we know. Nobody kept us informed.
I was so confused on that day, as I was the only person in the flat, feet away. Our rooms was right next to each other. Then I had to sit in the reception area for about 3 hours sitting quietly. Now and then getting questioned still unknown what happened.. My other flatmate was at university. When they moved me to a new flat about 4pm they told me on my own. I had nobody. All I remembered that they day about 10am.
On the 24th going to be so hard, to be honest... I don't know if or how I will cope. I hope I will cope because I know that she will. She was such a confident, funny, smart girl.
Anyway I better say goodnight
Love you
Zanny xx
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